Where the hell did the time go...

Can't believe it's been over two years since I blogged anything. Where the hell did the time go.

Not much happening on this end - just trying to figure out what I'm doing and where I'm going.

In less than two months, I will be turning 50. Can't believe and I sure don't feel 50. Planning a big celebration, want to make sure I do it right - plan on being totally drunk the whole weekend :)

Well maybe I will start to blog more... Who knows...

Happenings at the crazy house...

Well it's finally over, at least for the next few weeks...

Soccer is over and I'm happy to say - Sam made the "A" team for the town she plays in. I'm so proud of her. She did her best and really made an impression on the other coaches and trainers.

Cait had her dance recital on Sunday and what a day. She has turned into a beautiful young woman and she really made me proud. Here's a photo of her and her dance class. She's the second from the left. I love to watch her dance! Can't wait to see what they do next year...

Well today a good day to start...

Yes, I've been MIA these past few months, so I thought today would be a good day to post something.

It's been crazy on my end with the spring sports and school getting ready to end. The kids sure do keep me busy...

Soccer has ended and it wasn't a great season, but the good news - Sam made the "A" team and gets bump up 3 brackets. This team has wanted her for the last three years and after many talks, Sam has decided to move. She leaves behind many players that have become good friends and the one coach who is just great. But Sam knows that she has make the move to make her a better player. So wish her good luck next year...

Cait's dance recital is today and I must say - WOW! I went to rehearsal yesterday and was totally blown away by the first dance. I can't believe how grown up she is and how good she looked. My family is going to be pleasantly surprised by the first dance!!!

Ryan is Ryan and I'll be glad when the school year ends... He's got a big year in front of him and he needs to get his shit together. But with that being said, I know he'll get it together, he always does.

Two weeks ago, I started another tradition with the girls - concerts!!! We saw Fall Out Boy, All Time Low, Metro Station, Hey Monday and my favorite - Cobra Starship. We had a blast! It was at Festival Pier at Penns Landing (Philly). Now we're planning on seeing Paramore with No Doubt and then Hey Monday. I have to admit, these kids have good taste in music! No Miley for my kids!!!!

Sins of our father...

When I was growing up, I didn't have a great childhood. My father was a nasty drunk and never knew what he would be like when he came home from a night of drinking. Sometimes I felt sorry for my mom and what she went through and other times, I was mad at her for not standing up to him. But the worst was the mental abuse, but somehow I managed to overcome those issues when I had my kids. I try my hardest not to instill the pain that I felt growing up. I think I've done a good job with my kids and we do have our moments but never what I went through.

The thing that pains me the most - how this horrible behavior continues to the next generation. Having someone else go through this just amazes me. When will this horrible cycle end? Don't they know how much anger and pain they are putting on their kids?

I'm just happy to know that I'm taking the high road and hopefully, some day in the future, my kids will look back with happy memories...

One of those moments...

Got a call from a very good friend. She informed me that a close co-worker, age 37, died in his sleep while traveling for work. He leaves a wife and small children. She was very close to this person and it has hit her hard.

We've been talking every week about the issues at work and how stressful they have become. Her company is downsizing, laying off and closing the office in August. Thankfully for her, they are allowing the managers to work from home come August. Not so good for her co-workers, many have lost their jobs.

I'm also having issues at work, more personnel issues than anything. I won't go into it but it's been very trying and stressful. Went to the doctor's today and although the news wasn't bad, it wasn't good either. I need to make some changes in my life and the most important one - stress - needs to be eliminated as much as possible.

So when P called me and told me her news, I was just blown away. P has been my friend for 34 years, and we've been through so many ups and downs. She's always been there for me and me for her. So in talking to her tonight, telling me how she felt, she made one comment that just rocked my night. Imagine working with someone that you've become close with, and then not to have him around anymore... It got me thinking - about me, my family and close friends.

We spend so much time worrying about the little things in life, the bullshit at work, the family arguments and just the day to day shit. There is so much that we take for granted, that sometimes I think we all need a reality check.

What would I do without P??? P lives in Florida and I don't get to see her as much I would like, but I sometimes think that because of the distance, our friendship has survived. She makes me laugh, cry and shakes me when I'm just being a shithead. Not once does she judge me, but instead encourages me in ways that I can't explain. Although she doesn't have kids of her own (she's a step-mom), she's always there to listen to me go on and on about my kids, the way that I'm raising them and always has a shoulder for me to lean on. There are times when I pick up the phone and know it's her, I spend the next hour laughing so hard that I end up crying. She has a great outlook on life and for that I am forever grateful. Life according to P should be a book - cause it would be a best seller.

So I guess when we are sitting around talking about others because they don't agree with your thoughts or views, when work gets too stressful, when the dog poops in the house, when the kids don't pick up their clothes or empty the dishwasher, I have to remember that my hubby, kids, family and especially P will always be there for me - no matter what.

So here's to you, P, for what you have brought to my life and for the friendship you have given me. I can never repay you for being there for me and I hope that I can always be there for you... I send my love to you!

Is is a plane, a bird, no it's....

I'm sitting finishing up some things from work and I hear this noise... It starts off low, but then it gets louder and louder. Then all of sudden it dawns on me - it's my dog and her snoring... sounds like a Mack truck going through the living room....

Chilly out there...

Okay, I am so ready for the nice weather. The last few days have been extremely cold - bitter cold. This walk into work is getting old and I'm ready for the nice weather.