I had a shitty day and I'm thankful that it's almost over. Some things happened at work today, that I'm too upset to talk about right now. Had some issues with my eyesight that kind of scared me, but I just contributed it to the stress that I'm under. I'm sure the doctor's isn't going to be real happy about this latest episode, haven't had one since September. I'm getting beat up by fellow co-workers and a particular vendor that I deal with. So it's been a hell of week. I still have two more days to get through and to be honest, I don't think I have the energy or will power to get through the next two days. So I'm sitting here just beating myself up.
I finished this day with going to my son's parent/teacher conference. I should have known that I was just too emotional to tackle something like that. I'm not saying that it was a bad conference, but I just see him shutting down in one class and it upsets me. He has a lot of potential and can do anything he wants and I need for him to understand that. I don't want him ending up like me - someone who is very unsure, and doubting every move that I make. I just want the best for him and that's the hard part. He needs to make mistakes and learn from them, but the mother in me wants to make it easy for him. I sometimes think that I've put a lot on his shoulders, demanding him to excel. This is where hubby and me disagree. I understand where hubby is coming from, but I just don't want Ryan to fail. I know that when push comes to shove, Ryan will do what needs to be done to get where he needs to be.
So I need to get some sleep and prepare myself for another trying day at work. Hopefully, things will work out...
5 comments:
Ugh. I hope that things start to turn around for you very soon. Work problems are the worst! I hope that you have at least a little recuperation time planned for the weekend.
thanks. today was just as bad as yesterday... only thing I have planned this weekend - taking sam for her referee license. hope all is well on your end.
Don't let any of this get you down. You know that you are an amazing person who only wants the best for all concerned. That's all you can do and it's all anyone should ask of you.
Sorry, that wasn't suppose to be anonymous (above).
Hope you have been able to rest up this weekend and are feeling better, and hoping the upcoming week at work will be a better one too. You have been in my thoughts and prayers.
*Hugs*
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